The Worst Part About Grief is the Helplessness

The Worst Part About Grief is the Helplessness

The worst part about grief is the helplessness. No matter what you do, where you go, or how you commemorate the loss, you still feel helpless at the end of the day. And it’s not the kind of helplessness you can ask for help with. It’s the kind that, even when you’re doing the things, using the tools, getting the sleep, and drinking the water, your heart still feels heavy. Your loss is still overwhelming and your life is still different.

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A Year Without You, Dad

A Year Without You, Dad

Over the last year I have questioned everything. I have lost my desire to write. I have lost my clear belief in the goodness of the universe. I have asked myself over and over again, what is it all for? Does it matter? I have lost my patience for bullshit. I have lost a desire to uphold the nicety of everyday life.

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